July 15

If I quit what would I fill my days with? A brand new job? A writing gig? Cigars and violence? There is too much advice to ask for and sometimes I'll just have to figure it all out on my own. But to drive into Hollywood to pay a huge fee to join a union that I will never see the benefits of due to my part time hours and lack of longevity in the company...? Does it make sense? Why does it pull at my heart to contemplate this. Will I feel like a failure? Like I've given up? I want to write and read more. Become better, stronger. (Working at the mall would be awful.) I want to fly. Sing with more power, chain myself to the bass and play until my fingers bleed, at this point that would take all day. What do I do?