We fell to pieces like puzzles in reverse.
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We make a conductive scene, a field of conduits and of electric impulses shooting out through space... It means nothing, I know. I am well aware of the absent mindedness of such words wrapped together like chain link fences in the distance; the optical illusion. This is a verbal illusion. My regretful mind compares the bitter crocodile tears nearly experienced at the onset of the worst band I've ever seen with layered glass paintings on the wall... certainly 'heavy in monetary value' but this kind of weight or meaning is senseless like a passed out priest at an AA meeting.
I imagine the fields of glory. The young carnage on hoods of cars with doors open blasting unlistenable music that crowds of drugged up individual all move around to. They move in tiny circles as if their circumference was the length of their arms extended and they were paralyzed in that semicircle forever...
Tonight, a possibility I couldn't shake
there was an influenza of good vibes
there was an overused word
there was an opportunity
there was antidote
there wasn't
Dream of the possibility
a casual friend shot himself in the head
casually
and right in front of me
as if it were my fault altogether
but I hadn't seen him in years
and his intent never became clear
Wake up knowing you missed something
it was just there, on the tip of your dry tongue
you can taste it
you know it exists
it is a thought, an idea to shatter the bothersome world
of incongruous facts and ignorant minds
the ignorant minds that project themselves onto everything instantaneously
the excessive conservatives. the minimalist liberals
reduce global impact, kill yourself.
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murder and chocolate. there are criminal videos of these haunted hero. they have taken lives of children and have stained their religious affiliation forever. how proud these ignorant countrymen become and how unsettled the whole structure is. there is a moment of confusion and blood. there is an anarchy of sorts but it is quickly reconciled by lies told and then untold by the news media with their perfect makeup and enormous hair, trying real hard, through method acting to envision some sense of pity and sadness....
the writing isn't working. I could have written beautifully. But I fucked it all up.
Sorry if you read this. You assholes.
