we must realize the importance of every single moment. every fraction of a second and all of the self-medication to ignore these huge revelations always drifting just below the surface. no more avoiding. a lively city in the evening and the day is a tourist trap. but I miss everything about the place. it is glorified in my head as something holy. it is an altar. it is a place to which I will return and exist. "I'm drunk and I'm lonely and you won't believe me." There is nothing more evil than lying to yourself in order to justify something obviously awful you are doing to the world, the environment, your brain. Reach the pinnacle of success, get crown royal endorsements, sex with supermodels due to prestige and they hang on every word. Write songs about how I wish to live life. Very introspective on this day. quit thinking so much, they say. just live.
two distinct philosophies. let me distinguish. the one is to simply live in the moment and to let whatever happens happen. almost passively, like an observer of your life from inside the coated shell of your body. the embodiment of your spirit. this attitude requires no conscious thought of the philosophy. in fact the best way to live this way is to put no active thought into the execution of it. this means less introspection. this means very little time spent in dark rooms thinking about the quality of life.
other philosophy is a constant striving for the best of every moment, through introspection and self-assessment, in dark rooms later, of course. constantly thinking of the way things should be will always ruin any present moments. you may be mistaken for an absent minded fool though you are secretly 'lost in space' inside yourself. a reverie they could never understand. call you spacious or absent from that present. this is the plague of this theory. ruining moments by attempting to manipulate them into perfection. there is no such thing as perfection, only progress.
